It is hard not to hide when I'm unhealthy. I fear my thoughts. I fear others seeing the manifestations of my mental struggles. Am I masking nearly as much as I hope I am? Probably not. I think I only cave to compulsion when no one is looking, but how attentive am I really to if others are observing when I'm obsessed with something? I fear others will try to help me.
Since I have already recognized that I am in a passing state that is not governed by reality around me, it is my duty to reign it in and not let it affect how I interact with others.